Where do I fit in?

The other day I was trying to clean up and came across this book. I have pushed aside several times and just wasn't interested. So that day I decided that I was going to read this book, it keeps popping up for a reason. It is called Restless Hearts by Marta Perry. Let me just tell you the kind of life changing book this was! The minute I finished it I knew that God kept putting this book in front of me for a reason. To sum it up it was about a women who moved to Amish Country in Pennsylvania. She hadn't quite put her finger on why but she went anyway. She went through many trials and tribulations but in the end found out why God had sent her back to this place. Her mother had passed away not too long after she was born and her father placed her into foster care. Not too long after her getting there she had a run in with her mothers family, who is Amish. I don't want to tell too much about the book, but I do want to recommend it.
This book has taught me that letting friends and family into your life is not a bad thing. Letting people love you for who you are is not a bad thing. That everyone isn't out to stab you in the back or hurt you. There are those bad ones that are but if you don't let yourself love and trust how are people going to be able to love and trust you? I know for many of you, you just fell off your chair. Take your time catching your breath. If you know me at all you know that my life is nothing but trials and tribulations. Then the very next day after reading this book I was placing it on the book shelf and found a book my sister Heather gave to me at Christmas. It is about facing your Giants. Coincidence?? I think NOT!!! So, I looked up and said 'Okay, you got me. I will read the book!' This book took a little bit to get through, okay a lot to get through. And once again I realized that I run from EVERYTHING! I hide it, I push it down, I push it away, I blame others... and the list just goes on and on. So needless to say the last couple of weeks have had very high peeks and very low valleys. But I made it! I made it through dealing with some of the most scariest stuff, hardest stuff and sadest stuff a person could ever want to face. It is just time to let go. There is no reason to hold on to things, so many people have forgiven me, what kind of person would I be if I didn't forgive others?
So to all those who I have ever hurt, lied to, pushed around and whatever else, from the bottom of my heart I am sorry.
'And we know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to His purpose.' -Romans 8:28