Me and My Family: Not sure what to write....

I am not sure what to write here really. But it seemed a good idea at the time of creating this. Sorry if it gets corny!

Today when I woke up Mikayla, my lovely daughter was standing next to my bed whispering to me. I couldn't hear her but she kept telling me that she didn't have a voice. So I call the doctor set up an appointment and then on the way to take my son Brenton to preschool she miraculously can talk. It was just amazing! But I am still making her go to the doctor, just because. It was a very cold 31 degrees this morning!! Is it supposed to be this cold in the middle of October?

Well lets see, about 2 weeks ago I got a call from my mom's husband saying that she was in the University of Maryland Medical Center because she had a brain aneurysm burst in her brain. It was on her brain stem and he didn't know what was going to happen. He has been very positive to say the least..... He would call and say that she was making leaps and bounds and she was fine and going to come home. But when I went down to see her for the first time it just didn't seem like her at all, she was very swollen and out of it. Now two weeks later and after several procedures, they have done everything they can for her aneurysm but she has lung cancer. She was diagnosed in December of 2006. And let me tell you that was one heck of a roller coaster ride! One minute she was the most loving person in the world and the next she was just a basket case and cursing EVERYONE out. It was a mess to say the least. Well she went into remission from it and about 1 month prior to her aneurysm she found out that it had come back. Two weeks before the aneurysm she had a Kemo treatment. But apparently now she is too weak for treatment and it has spread to both lungs. So it is only a mater of time.

I do want to say that I went to her and told her that I forgave her for all the things that had happened between us. And let me tell you, it was a lot. I also let her know that I may never forget them but it was time to let it go. Not only because of the situation but because I needed to do it. I realized, after many times of being told by my husband, that it is not good to hold onto grudges or be angry about things. I prayed with her and we have never even discussed religion together before. I was very emotion and an eye opening experience. I do love my mother, she made it VERY hard sometimes, but she is my mother and we did have good times. I now try to focus on the good times and not remember the bad times. I pray for her all the time that God will take her pain away and let her rest peacefully.

I have a wonderful sister, her name is Bobbi. She is just amazing! She is actually the one who inspired me to write my own blog. She has a wonderful and supporting family. But, my mom was not so nice to her. I am not sure of all the details of what went on but I hurt deeply for my sister. She struggles so much with the fact of coming to see my mother or not. I just pray that she doesn't hurt over this. Lord knows she has hurt enough with it. If you read this Bobbi, I LOVE YOU!!! With all of this going on with my mother it has brought me closer to a lot of my family that I haven't really talked to. It has been uplifting and amazing!

Anyway, I am sure I have typed you ears off!!! Sorry if it is corny, but I wasn't sure what to write and this is what came to me!

Love to all!

Here are some pictures of the kids and family!

Brenton in his Race Car chair